Happy Birthday Glitter Graphics

Today is a milestone birthday. I could say I am 30 and holding, but in reality I am blessed to see 40. I just thank goodness I do not look 40. This is a remarkable day because I often to wondered if I would live past 35. I remember the fear of turning 30 brought me. I cringed in the belief my time on this earth was nearing its end. My unfounded belief was based on the fact my mother passed at 35 years of age, unexpectedly. This fear seemed to manifest itself completely at age 30, but by the time I was 35 I no longer had the fear.

I have been asked over and over again what I was doing for my 40^th and my response has been nothing big. I grew up without birthday parties, so a party was out of the question. I wanted to go out of town, but damn that. I have travel enough for the summer and I do not want to be on an airplane for a minute. No Lordy, Lordy she is Forty, either. I wanted the day to be special for me. I wanted to wake up and feel the same as I did when I was 39. I wanted to open my eyes and say, "Thank You Lord!" I wanted to smile at my aunt and wish her a good day. I wanted to just breathe in thankfulness. I wanted my inner spirit to be at peace with the life I have lived and will continue to live. And every time I look in the mirror today, I wanted to see a woman who may not be perfect, but is continuing to strive for perfection in an imperfect world. I wanted to feel it in my heart that there is nothing I would change about my life, because so far so good! And I did all this. Happy Birthday to me!